i feel

i just want to fly
it must be the most,
the most supurb thing.
to climb above the air
and eat the sky

to dream, i feel
to think, i feel


i love human reaction
to stimuli and passion,
beyond our composure.
its here and now
and i embrace it

to think, i feel
to dream, i feel

101

green
leaping into the black
youve never felt so alone

the air rushes everywhere around
and all you hear
is death

remember to just curl up
youve practiced this before
it will be alright

the landings gonna be rough,
let that escape your mind
and do what youve been told

whats always there

i cant help but to be reminded
almost everything
makes my mind transform

the melody
the sight
the redolence

something new and never experienced
would take me further
than something i know

i turn around
and see you everywhere
but only standing in my thoughts

the winter
is just temporary
but the taste is of mint

about that last one.....

i was re-reading what i wrote the other day and thought it sounded like i was depressed. i am not. its not about my life, it is about something else. although if you would like to interpret it that way, be my guest. here is something a bit more happy. about one of my school classes.


discussing nothing
while you bandage
my fake injury

repeating what we know
to make it unchangeable
as we learn to save lives

pressing my hands
on the naked chest of
the artificial woman
giving life,
while breaking bones

sucking the liquid
from your nose
so that you can breath

giving you the essence
so that your heart
wont burst
and letting you breath
the marvelous sky

when it begins

wondering when it will end
as i lay here
making up my own memories

wishing i could change
what i have crafted
into something incredible

punching what is left
of the affection
still unwavering

will it ever begin?

the concert

a bit ago i went to the muse concert and told you a bit about it. i also said i would try and get the video. here it is. if you look closely you can see me at the end.

attack of the heart

i was sitting there laying on the couch watching a boring movie. i think to myself, i want an oatmeal cream pie. i get up and munch it down. after which i lay back down. all of the sudden, my chest kills. it feels like someone putting inner city pressure on my entire chest cavity. this lasts for about 30 minutes and i can't take any more, i go to bed at about midnight. three o'clock rolls around and i am awakened by the same throbbing pain. i had to lay in bed for about 20 minutes with this awful pain before i could get back to sleep. boy, did it suck. i had to suffer for a three and a half hour heart attack. i never want to do that again.

ps it was not heartburn. i couldnt breath some of the time because of the pain.